For almost 6 years of my life I was either pregnant or nursing children and it was the hardest, but most rewarding, 6 years. I had identical twin girls, got pregnant as a surrogate, and had a sweet little boy. These moments don't define me but they certainly shaped me to be who I am today. They have made me appreciate the life that I have and feel sorrow for those who don't.
Being a surrogate was a defining moment in my life because I was not completely supported. I was told it was wrong, not in Gods plan, and even that I was being selfish...take that in for a moment. I was doing one of the most selfless things I could possibly imagine. I was taking rounds of hormones (that made me absolutely crazy and incredibly sick) and giving birth to a baby that wasn't even related to me. All this for a couple I barely knew. Yes, that sounds so selfish. Even after all of the discouraging and hurtful comments, I put myself through the pain and suffering of hormones and childbirth. I did this selfless act and, I will never admit it to those people but, I loved every second. It made me feel stronger, bigger (even literally), and like I was on top of the world. I will never apologize for giving an amazing couple a sweet baby boy and I am so proud of myself!
On a lighter note, I fall in love every day with the man of my dreams. He was never what I imagined for myself but still continues to surprise me with his kind heart and intellectual mind. I don't know what we would all do without him. Even when he drives us all crazy.
I hope you come back and enjoy this boisterous, intense, and frightening place because you love us all so much you can't even explain!!
